Omaha
You can enlarge your soul but it is to receive what?
Did you say the thing they were expecting you to say?
Well then, see, how easy it is to be somebody else.
Like someone you see who looks like yourself in a dream,
for instance. What is it you look like. Your face,
is it there in your hands now, or down in the water?
If in the water, can you still pick it up, put it back on,
or is that trick lost? Reflect. Quick. Have you that vacancy
in you
which can be forced to collaborate?
Have you that vacancy which can be occupied,
and by what, and for how long, and at what
cost, pray, tell. Oh speak. Say TAKE YOUR MEDICINE.
Or PRETEND YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S ALL
ABOUT. Or whatever else it is you would have us
know. MY HOW YOU'VE GROWN would be ok,
but I'm not sure how you'd mean us to take that.
TAKE THAT. WHO ARE THOSE THERE.
Everything looks suddenly frighteningly reassuring.
As if the gods were rummaging through their drawers for this brief
spell, which feels like rain to us, so one can imagine
humming a little song, nothing, for just this tiny interval,
behind one's back. But look, even as we feel free
to live as if in their absence, for just this little while,
look how our mania continues to strut, oblivious. Ours,
in spite of us. What is this we are?
Even the balconied-ones have their limits.
Tolerance. Boredom. One comes out to the edge now with a blue
wand,
I look up. Don't draw too close.
Do you think she has a different power. She waves
the thing. Others scamper away as she reaches the rail
and leans out over us. Waves and waves of blue
seem to scatter from the tip of her wand. "You
are fools" is said by the waves, but in another tongue.
"Anaesthesized by greed" is also let loose.
Some among us think they rise triumphant by just
drawing the next breath. As I tell you this
the stage grows very dark, I can hardly make her out.
The perspective is that of an American city, where one
is peering from street level to an unfindable upper floor.
A noisy place where it seems all of this
should have been long obvious to us from the start.
When "good" and "evil" had fresh paint on them,
performing for us on their various pedestals,
and you, you could look into any store window
and see the offspring of the two
right there, dead center, from any sidewalk,
a certain resemblance to some actor--waves now, waves rolling
eternally,
of men, some dead, some still alive, being swept in, being rammed in--
Agency! What is that? The drowned wash in to receive
their bullets, the living wash in to receive
theirs. They cannot really be told
apart. Not from up there where the firing originates.
Not from up there where it's a scene in a movie.
There never was an alternative.
No one after a point could have stood up and walked
away
in fear. No. No fear. Not anymore. These are the givens:
poverty, greed, un-
expectedness. The bubble of the now being emitted from the
blossoming
then. That's all. Maybe disappearance--as of the moon
to the horror of the men already in dark.
And always the one, far away, sitting charred and absent-
minded, on his throne. And always an audience
for all this slaughter and laughter--
"later on." The last few decades at any given moment
a leaf that drops. Some twig left
bare. The change upon us. But the fall--the falling
of it even after it is done--the fall: continues.
Because there is no way to get the killing to end.
Created by
guccipiggy
Last modified
2005-03-17 09:04 PM
